Process De Life

I am thrilled about the process of life.  Man some things surely suck, but over all i am pumped and excited to see what God is doing in my life from school, job (which is way way slow of a process - booo procrastination) and relationships, which involves a lot of learning in patience and self control.  Plus it involves memorizing names and being sociable and outgoing, but mainly patience... tuff.  But in all this patience and self control i find much joy in pursuing God and seeing where he puts people in my life.  About seeing how he directs me with school, ministry, family, and life decisions.  

I recently had a pretty amazing conversation with a gentleman who goes by the name Eugene.  It was a glorious conversation and was needed for the time and place that i am in in my life.  The main things that he mentioned was finding your self worth in Christ alone, and by realizing that life and all its happenings are part of a process.  This process called life is amazing with all its twists and turns and that is why i desire with everything in me to drink of it deeply. 

As i have been on this process and journey since i have been back from Alaska it seems that i have been falling back into the complacency of where i was before.  I got this negative feeling this morning, that has honestly started to eat me alive.  This feeling that i am falling away from Christ, not like I am losing my salvation, but that i am not pursuing him as i should.  This feeling came over me in some big ways this morning and even last night as i began to realize that even though i was praying for others, there was parts of my prayer time that were selfish.  I started praying last night and this morning and began to realize that i am pursuing others and other things more then i am pursuing God.  So as i thought back to what Eugene and I talked about i began to remember my absolute desire to give all of me for God, to pursue HIM with everything in me.  I started to think about this process and the fact that Eugene mentioned that as he pursued God, God put certain people and things perfectly in place for where he is now.

What an encouragement my friends, to remember and realize as i pursue God he will put things perfectly in place, so there is no worry about where certain relationships, job opportunities, and how school things will fall.  I am not saying to just slack off and let things happen, but I am saying as I pursue God he will put things in place that fall in line with my heart and my plans, which i pray and hope are His will.  

So this process of life... as hard as it is i am enjoying it.  This process of life, i can't wait to see all the adventures God blesses me with as i pursue him.  So i really just ask that you help me by praying that i continue to pursue him fervently with everything, and to not fall into the complacency of where  i was before.  Oh and i would say this... together, lets drink deeply of this adventure called life.