Worrying Response

This is a response to my friends Shannon's blog, i figured this was a better place to put large amounts of texts.  So this is a response to Love-Hate Relationship.

I worry so much myself over things i can't control.  I find myself failing to the same problems and sins over and over again, and as i slip further down that hill, i become more entrenched in the muck and grime and it is harder to clean off.  Literally so hard to get rid of something that i think is coating me.  Funny thing is though, i am clean because someone took my sins away.  I know i am pure and looked at as such by my heavenly father no matter what and when i ask for forgiveness, but just because i can do something doesn't really mean i should... or should i.

Honestly that is a rhetorical question, i know it is truth that i shouldn't do something just because i can.  It is interesting to me though that as i constantly read over 1 Corinthians 13: 1-13 God shows me his truth and light.  How does this have to do with worry, because everything is spiritual and everything that i do in my life affects me and the way i think.

I have no suggestions for my friend Shannon on how to counteract these daily battles because i find myself struggling to trust God and to give over everything that i am about.  I find myself lost within myself hoping that i will find an answer about relationships, about jobs, about school about life.  I find myself not trusting and God and trying to grab on to things that don't matter and are not in my control.  Honestly the only advice that i would have is to chase and run after God with everything that you have.  As i have sought his face it has given me peace and joy.  As i have treasured the literal word of my father he has brought me wisdom and discernment, but in all of that i still find myself worrying about the future, and all these little pieces of my life i try to fit into certain places instead of God helping me be whole.  I find myself following my heart instead of God protecting it for me.

I know these thoughts are jumbled up together, but you know what, i am consumed with something that doesn't matter, that only hurts me... and that is worry.  I wish i could offer something of a little more substance but i can't.  I just trust in God and he continues to fill me up and lead me on this thing called life, and when i rest in his arms, joy... not worry consumes me.

Rest in him for he is by your side whenever you call.