Unknown Future

Well... i have no idea what my future is.  I know that is perfectly fine.  I really wouldn't like to know the end, to be honest i am not the biggest fan of spoilers. I like the initial surprise, but i do like knowing things.  I like the feeling that i know fo sho that i am doing the right thing and headed the right way, but that is not the season of life i am in right now... and like i said in the beginning that is perfectly fine.

Well recently, for a long recently, i have been reading the Bible all the way through and now i am in Psalm, and yes, there are quite a few of them. :)  I just read Psalm 37 and the verses 4-7a really stood out to me.  In this period of life i am in a time of patience and have no idea what is next.  I hate it, i want to know what to do, but instead i am in a period of waiting of not knowing.  I am in a great period of growth, rebuilding and encouragement.  I am in a period of serving and giving all i have.  I am in a period that is trying to be all i can because everything is spiritual.  I am in a period where... i am lost but Jesus knows the way, and as i rest in him it is all ok.  Even though i don't everything that i should do... i know that he is beautiful and in charge.

Psalm 37: 4-7a "Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act.  He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.  Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;"

In reading these verses it hits me that as i follow God... i am his will.  As i delight myself in his ways, as i pursue him, he will guide me.  One thing that i realize mostly is as it says commit your way to the Lord, trust in him, HE WILL ACT.  That is so beautiful to me.  Knowing that as i seek my savior he will act in my behalf.  As i am pursuing him he will guide me and that i am not alone.  To go further it says that he will bring forth my righteousness.  We know that this means he will bring forth my faith, my trust in him because we are declared righteous by our faith in Christ. (Genesis 15: 6)  So as he brings forth my faith and trust he will grow me in those areas and help me live by more strongly by them.

I think the hardest part though is the last sentence... "Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him."  To be honest... i dont want to wait.  I don't want to sit in silence.  I want to pray and speak the whole time, i want to rush through life.  But as i go throughout this thing called a relationship with Christ, things are made so much sweeter and more beautiful as God brings things to color as i wait on him.  As i slow down and listen and just sit, God really does come through in some amazing ways.  All in all i am not the most patient person, but i know that God does some amazing things in the time of my waiting for him.  

All of this to say, i think there is still some more hidden meaning in these verses for me.  I think this verse Proverbs 19:21 - "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails."  coupled with Psalm 37:4-7a makes a powerful cocktail of love and and Gods splendor.  To realize that God is doing some amazing things and as i wait on him and delight myself in him I AM HIS WILL.  As i sit in the silence, as i sit in beauty his plans will prevail over mine, and THANK YOU GOD FOR THAT! :)  But in this in between and time of wait, i hope to start each day as if it were on purpose.  I hope to patiently wait as God opens my ears and eyes to the joys and struggles around me.  I hope to patiently wait for strength, wisdom, and guidance for what is next in life with school, relationships, job, family... everything.

Patience: in that time the LORD's purpose will prevail because he is there with me, always by my side through everything, no matter if i don't feel him or feel things going great.