Searching

It seems i am searching for something.

It seems that i am supposed to be learning something.

I find myself looking on the internet at nothing in-particular for long periods of time when i could be filling my mind with knowledge and could be trying hard in school... Yet i just search.

I seem to be searching for worth in many thing from people, girls, drums... These are the things that come to mind right now, but i am pretty sure in thinking more on this, my world would be utterly shattered as i discover what i am putting my worth into.

It seems as i look for worth in other places, i am missing the big picture.  I am missing the fact that my worth is not found in others or in other things, but in God alone.  I realize God wants to bless me with many things, but i put my worth into these blessings instead of the giver of those blessings.

I am lost, searching for God knows what. ( I say that literally not like taking his name in vain)

I know my worth is in him, but i seem to be searching.  Searching for words, actions, conversations, people.  I am just...

Searching.