By Myself Alone

Why are you striving these days

Why are you trying to earn grace

Why are you crying

Let me lift up your face

Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough

To where will you go child

Tell me where will you run

To where will you run

And I'll be by your side

Wherever you fall

In the dead of night

Whenever you call

And please don't fight

These hands that are holding you

My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side

They swallowed the grave on that night

When I drank the world's sin

So I could carry you in

And give you life

I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you

I want you to know

That I, I love you

I'll never let you go

(Chorus 2x)

So if you were to look at these lyrics you would see the title is not necessarily fitting... or is it?  The titles for these past few blogs has been more of a reflection of the state I am personally in and how these songs have met me, and how God has used these lyrics and these notes to speak love, joy, rest, peace, sacrifice into my life.

But i want you to focus on these two lines:

Why are you looking for love

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough  

How beautiful and reflective this is of my life as i am searching for love in so many different places.  Searching for it from myself, from others such as family and friends. It is interesting that no matter the person, the activity, the joy and the love that it brings is so fleeting and means nothing compared to the Love that MY FATHER has for ME! :)   There is freedom in letting go, i have experienced it and it is so... relieving.  It is so relaxing to give God your relationships, especially ones that would involve pursuits.  God is my number one and always will be.  For as i pursue him, i hope and pray that he places the pieces of my life where they need to be.

But listen and fall in love with the savior.  Listen to this beauty.

(Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side)