Through this post you will meet one of my friends and you will be introduced to a blog which i discovered through her, but it seems like an unreal and amazing blog.
I was reading my friend Shannon's blog titled "So you want to be mega?" and it directed to read this other blogers post (click on post, it will take you to what inspired me to write this blog). Oh, and by the way i would highly recommend reading Shannon's blog, it is amazing and encouraging to see how God is working and doing amazing things in her life. The insight that God has given her is amazing.
So as i was reading this blog this individual comments about how some churches have this thing called mission drift which is becoming something that they were not originally designed to be and are going away from there there set practices. He mentions these small churches wanting to be mega. In fact he also talks about how 50 churches a week close there doors forever. In reading his blog one statement that he said really stuck out to me, and here is what he said, "But chances are, wen you and a handful of people originally got together in your living room to start a church you didn't say, 'We want to be the next Willow Creek.' More than likely you said, 'God, the people in this community need to be reached by you. Please let us be your hands.' Mega wasn't a part of that. Mega wasn't the point. So Don't let it sneak in and run the show when you grow a little."
I thought about this and all of my plans and goals. I thought about a list of 30 goals that i had to make in my summer maymester class for Kennesaw. In my leadership class we had to think up of 30 goals we wanted to accomplish because it was found in a study that was done of people who attended a 20 year reunion at harvard that 90% of the wealth of the people in the room was held by only 5% of the people. The deciding factor to who succeeded and who didn't do as well was that these 5% wrote there goals down and stuck to them. So i wrote down these goals, and some of them are huge like travel around the world speaking at events by the age of 25, own my own missions organization by 26, write a book by 25, or my personal favorite... go to every single Waffle House in Georgia by the time i die. (LOVE IT!!!) But then i also have small goals such as base jump in a wingsuit by summer 2010, go snowboarding in Chile for my 22nd birthday, or be a part time butcher or baker for next school year. I look at the 30 goals that i have typed out and some of them are small but others are mega huge.
I remember when i started out thinking i just wanted to be a youth pastor, and then a youth pastor with a part time job on food network. I mean then God really started growing my goals and that is when i desired to travel around speaking, bringing a foundational truth to the people that are around my age. My goals may have started out small but as God has grown me i feel he has grown me to be mega.
Is this ok? I mean i know i should have God sized goals, but all of these things it seems like i want to travel around and speak, i want to write a book, i want to go to Chile for my 22nd birthday, i want four or more kids, i want... i want, i want, I WANT.
It seems it is time for me to ask what God wants, but... are these goals his goals. If i test all these things they are inherently good and i should trust that God can and will accomplish mighty things within me... right? I want to be mega, i want to do huge things. I want to stop slacking off, i want God to kill this spirit of procrastination and laziness in me. I want to be who he created me to be, and could that be someone who is Mega? I mean i want to give my entire body, my entire life, my entire worth to others for His kingdom glory. I want to build community and unite different denominations and break down there useless barriers. I have written a blog on this confusion and i don't have an answer i only have more questions as to the impossibility of uniting others within a community based on God.
One thing i know is that I desire to follow God and be who he wants me to be... is that someone who is Mega, or is that someone who is small. They both will have infinite worth, both will be for his glory and purpose alone, only one will have a seemingly greater impact.
I know all of this is jumbled, but these are my thoughts. I want to be mega, is that wrong or is that right? And does being wrong or right really matter in this situation?
3 comments, questions, concerns:
Goals are over rated! We have this big world ahead of us and we are like little children in a candy store....."I want...I want"
It is when we stop wanting for those few minutes and really listen to God. He is waiting for these moments so that we can hear His plans for us. In the quiet I have heard His voice and I am moving forward to serve in Alaska. His plans were much greater than the plans that I had and the outcome will reach so many more. mom
I would say you DON'T want to pursue "mega." You want to pursue God, and let him decide whether He will use you on a bigger stage or a smaller one. The important thing is to take what He's entrusted you with, and use it wisely.
I think we should all aspire to be both. Being little doesn't necessarily mean having little goals that aren't far-reaching. God teaches us to hope and break out of our feeble mindset, trusting him to take us farther than ever before. Having mega goals gets in the way of pursuing Christ when it becomes about our own glory, the “look what I did for God today” syndrome. I think to be both little and mega is to accept the opportunities God gives us to further his kingdom beyond our own reaches - into the "mega" - while maintaining our humble place as his children, offering everything, big and small, with only love in our hearts and hope for his glory - forgetting what the world says our goals should be and deciding to fight for him instead, no matter how small or mega the fight gets and no matter how smeared our name on earth becomes. If your wanting was entirely self-gratifying and you found yourself justifying it to the world, yeah I'd worry. But the fact that you are already examining the motives behind your goals means you’re continuing to see straight. God has his ways of telling us we've gone too far - I don't think you'd miss it. He also has his ways of telling us we haven’t gone far enough.
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